uuuuuuugh.... why you making me choose

The romantasized option would be to say freewill. It gives me images of a lone ranger walking off in the horizen towards endless adventurs (much like the cheesy Harley clip our teacher showed us). I know better though, (or i think i do (but if i am doubting does that cancel my knowlege out)) I don't have supreme free will. Or even any free will at that. My teacher was speaking in class about a philosopher whose theory is that fate is not necesarily based on a superior being but by one's genetics, experiences, and environment. This envoked deep thought in myself. I have had similar theories but have never summerized them in such a way. It was as if i was in a car ride up a mountain and all of a sudden my ears popped with out me knowing they were not clear allready. The knowlege hit me and i was cleared. I believe in FATE. but not fate set by a higher being because if the being was so high why would it bother itself with petty things such as the fate of me. If i was a higher being i would just loose myself in pure bliss and never bother myself with work. Fate is set by our experiences, genetics, and environment. I have spent quit a while now trying to think of exceptions to this and i can't. I would like to think when i make choises it is myself that is choosing the choice but it isn't it is the previous experiences that i have remembered that form my decision. And even if i choose at random it is the pressure from the anti-conformity side that brings me to this decision. But i get the anti-conformity idea from my peers or things i have seen or because i want to imitate others (aka the environment/experiences). I have no freewill and those who say they do are fools.